First post

This is a first post, but I will dispense with any real introduction, since I assume that if you are reading this, you know me.

Actually, strike that, I will introduce myself. Not because it is necessary, but because it will set the proper tone for the rest of this blog. My main goal with this blog is to force me to write. By writing, I hope to not destroy all my brain cells with inactivity and alcohol in the next few weeks. Furthermore, there is a slim hope that by writing my ideas out as I think them, maybe I will start to gain some appreciation for what my actual beliefs are.

As of now, as a starting point, I don't believe in anything. To believe in something is to accept as true or real. I don't accept anything. No one tells the truth; not merely because we all have things we wish to hide form the world but because complete honesty is an impossibility for people. Here is a simple test: consider a green dot. If you are color blind, you would be unable to say that the dot is green. Does that mean you are lying? No, but you still are not speaking the truth.

Life is a game of incomplete information. No matter how smart you are, how perceptive, there is always something you will miss. In any environment, your senses are assualted on all sides by competing factors, and your mind can only process so much information. At the same time, we rely on this sensory information; studies have been done that stripping an individual of all his sense will drive him insane. We do not live in a vacuum, nor can we.

Everything matters, any detail that is minor now could become critical later. Not all ripples become waves, but when they are just ripples, it is impossible to tell which ones will become waves. We do the best we can with the limitations imposed on us, but there are still limitations.

So if one lacks beliefs, then how can one live? It is simple, really -- by living in the moment. The moment is guaranteed. Memories of the past are colored by our emotions and are usually remembered incorrectly, and the future is unpredictable. It is like a poker game; we use our intellect and perceptions, along with the circumstances occurring at the time, to make the best possible decision we can.

Of course, if one lets me, I can go on about this for hours, and it becomes all quite circular. And saying that the best way to live is in the moment and doing it are two completely seperate entities. Which, in the end, makes me a hypocrite. Which is ironic, because I claim to have no beliefs, and a hypocrite is someone who professes beliefs and lives opposite of them. Which I suppose also makes me a liar. Oh, and lest I forget, consistency is not a strong point of mine. I tend to write, say and do whatever I think, irregardless of the consequences.

I think, all in all, this may be one of the most perfect introductions I could possibly craft.